changes
i lost it. somewhere along the journey, i just did. i am not sure if it’s a good thing or not. one thing i’m sure of though is that the changes are inevitable. i seem to have lost more than i have gained. the happiness i’m feeling is so surreal, it felt temporary but so strong, sometimes i feel like i am allowing it to pull me in the wrong directions. i have not, in my entire life imagined it would come to this. i have not, in my entire life saw myself going in this direction with open arms. i am walking with my eyes closed. i’m blind. i’m deaf. i feel like my ignorance is enough of an excuse of something i am actually afraid of. i have moved along another path i am not used to taking. the ground is shaky, unstable and steep. my choices are starting to narrow down to uncertainties, or is it just me? am i now so afraid to be left behind, that i have gambled to walk on deadly grounds? will i be able to pull this off and get out with no regrets? or will i stay and accept the changes that has started to take over me? will i look back and realize that i actually lost it a long time ago even before i crossed this path and that i just never noticed it?…. or have i not lost it at all, that i, the ever fearless me prefers to think that i lost it just so i can explain the overwheling changes in me?
June 10th, 2009 at 12:10 pm
I believe in the changes in life and accept them or not accept them based on my intuition and senses tell me. I lost it too one night in my hotel room and I had to choose the Bible and not the phone book. Friendship is key to survival and to happiness however, I know that there is One, One that is so incredibly trustworthy all you have to do is make a request and He changes your life and your destiny. Ilearned you cannot always rely on women, women wil too let you down as Adam learned from Eve.
She knew what she was doing was wrong, her mind, her emotions, her heart, her body Told her that it was wrong but she did it anyway. Now she has no excuse seven generations later. She has to put the guy sitting in her shoulder away and listen to the angel with the golden halo.